I
can imagine red flags going up for my more progressive readers, fearing I’ve
gone evangelical on them with a title like “Cuddling with Jesus.” And my more mainstream
readers may fear I’m getting too familiar, even sexual, with our spiritual
leader.
But
the deity with whom Jacob wrestles in Genesis becomes the deity with whom the
Beloved Disciple cuddles during the Last Supper in John. It’s okay for males to
wrestle (God was imagined as male, remember) but not to cuddle (Jesus was
imagined as God, remember).
In my book, As My Own Soul: The Blessing of Same-Gender Marriage, I pointed out how recent translations have distanced
the Beloved Disciple, believed to be John, from Jesus. In the King James
Version “the disciple whom Jesus loved” is “leaning on Jesus’ bosom.” The
Revised Standard Version describes him as “lying close to the breast of Jesus.”
But the New Revised Standard Version and the New Jerusalem Bible have the
Beloved Disciple simply “reclining next” to Jesus. As the Beloved disciple
moves farther away from Jesus with newer versions, I imagine in the next
translation he will be in another room!
In
his book, The Man Jesus Loved,
Theodore Jennings translates the passage this way:
One of his disciples was lying in Jesus’ lap, the one Jesus loved; so Simon Peter nods to this one and says: “Tell, whom is he talking about?” That one, falling back on Jesus’ chest says to him: “Lord, who is it?”
Imagine
watching TV with a group of close friends, some of whom are seated on the
floor. Arms may rest on knees, heads lean on shoulders, hands draped
affectionately on legs. This would be like the scene of the Last Supper, where
the custom would be for everyone to be on the floor with cushions or mats, not
seated upright at a table.
This
is the casual intimacy between John and Jesus, but it affords John the
opportunity, in the understanding of Celtic Christianity, to “listen for the
heartbeat of God” with his head on Jesus’ breast. It is a symbol of mysticism,
not sexuality, though mysticism is also erotic, understanding “eros” as the
force that compels us toward God or another human being.
What
prompts this reflection is a recent opinion piece by Stanford anthropology
professor T. M. Luhrmann, who suggests the success of evangelical churches is
that they promise such a personal relationship with God, but then overstates
the case by claiming—mistakenly, I believe—that mainstream Christians do not
imagine a God so intimate. (Since writing this I discovered agreement from a
Letter to the Editor by Sister Mary Ann Walsh.)
I
do believe mainstream Christians have a problem with intimacy. I once heard
seminary professor and author Carter Heyward describe their God as a “Gentleman
God,” embarrassed by sexual passion, yet too polite and dispassionate to be
rabidly anti-gay. And the changing position of the Beloved Disciple may have to
do with a fear of homoerotic implications.
But
I believe the broader fear is intimacy with God. I’ve noticed that the same
translation that has John “reclining next” to Jesus in John 13:23 also
translates John 1:18 about Jesus’ intimacy with God as “who is close to the
Father’s heart” when the actual text reads “who is close to the Father’s
bosom.”
Yet
I believe many mainstream Christians’ embrace of contemplation also chooses an
intimate relationship with God. And though it may seem new, it has always been
with us, from the Desert Fathers and Mothers, monastic communities, and Celtic
spirituality to our present day interest in all things spiritual.
My
purpose in writing this blog is to encourage progressive Christians, too, to
come out of the closet about their intimacy with God, with Jesus, and with the
Spirit. Ours may be a different experience, but no less worthy to strengthen
our resolve, challenge others’ certainties, and enjoy communion with all we
hold sacred and dear.
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missed:
Do Progressive Christians Pray? (99 Brattle)
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Christians Pray?” I discovered three recent posts reflecting on that post! To
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Please
join me as I lead a free public workshop on Just Love entitled “Body Boundaries
and the Question of Consent” this coming Saturday, April 27, 2013, from 10
a.m.-1:00 p.m. (free lunch follows) at St. Francis Episcopal Church, Macon,
Georgia. We will explore the spiritual dimensions of physical encounters.