The
intimacies offered me in conversation and pastoral counseling as well as my own
self-knowledge have convinced me that many and perhaps most of us live with a
crazy man or a crazy woman in our basement. Perhaps that was the intended
metaphor of Charlotte Bronte’s Gothic novel, Jane Eyre, that had a deranged relation imprisoned secretly in an
upper room or attic. Yet I think my “crazy person in the basement” concept suggests
something more basic to our nature than our upper regions, more visceral than
conscious. This is the one stoking our
furnace and fueling our engine down below, so to speak. When one escapes, the
host makes news, and endures judgment from those of us who think “we are not
like them.”
What
occasions this rumination was watching an entertaining romantic comedy about a British
retirement home for gifted musicians entitled, Quartet (2012). A
character’s frontal lobe has been damaged and so cannot edit himself, bluntly expressing
indelicate feelings, observations, and thoughts coming from, one could say, his
crazy man in the basement.
What
you read on this blog I carefully edit, because writing my posts is like
working without a net—after all, I have no editor or copyeditor as I have had
with all my other writings. Thus I read and review each post multiple times to
make sure it says what I want it to say as well as to avoid misunderstandings.
But
my whole life—and I would suggest others’ lives—is a product of similar, careful
editing. I cannot speak for others, but Christ, culture, and Chris are primary
editorial filters for me. I follow Jesus as spiritual guide, and he represents
specific views of God, so Christ is also my God filter. Multiple cultures serve
as editorial filters for me: spiritual, ethical, theological, literary, social,
scientific, liberal, marginal—the list goes on. Most in need of explanation is
“Chris,” but all this means is that my life must reflect and reveal what I
believe about myself, and I believe this is common for most of us.
The
crazy man in my basement is one who resists Christ, culture, and Chris. This is
the one I sometimes meet when I become angry or anxious, infatuated or lustful,
greedy or envious or vengeful, obsessive or pious, one who is fearful and
fearless, vulnerable and arrogant, clueless and clever.
Christian
mystics from the Desert Fathers and Mothers to the more contemporary Thomas Merton
and Thomas Keating have recognized that the crazy man or woman in the basement
rears his or her unwelcome head as our spiritual lives progress. Like the
demons who asked Jesus, “What have you to do with us?” so our shadow selves
emerge in the presence of God’s light, needing redemption and healing. This is
considered a natural progression in spiritual growth.
Some
keep the crazy person in the basement, often secretly, preventing their shadow
side from encountering Jesus’ or God’s TLC.
Some externalize and scapegoat the crazy person, attempting to restrain
the demoniac as the Gerasenes did, or allowing him to exile and stone himself naked
and vulnerable among tombs, failing to recognize that “he is us.” (See Mark
5:1-20 and my post, listed below, “Exorcising Demons.”)
I
believe what is needed is an honest encounter with the crazy man or crazy woman
inside each of us. Only then may we come to ourselves, and through spiritual
practices and the help of a spiritual community, spiritual director, or soul
friend (anamchara), find our right
minds.
Progressive Christian
Reflections is an authorized Emerging
Ministry of MCC. Your donations are its only means of support. Thank you!
Related posts:
Copyright © 2013 by
Chris R. Glaser. Permission granted for non-profit use with attribution of
author and blogsite. Other rights reserved. Check out past posts in the right
rail on the blogsite. Consider using a post or quotes in your congregation’s or
group’s newsletter, including the blog address: http://chrisglaser.blogspot.com.
Thanks, Chris - a very valuable post. Another author who has a good deal to say about confronting one's shadow self is Cynthia Bourgeault.
ReplyDelete