Rarely
am I given an opportunity to skinny-dip these days, but I used to love it. The
sensuality of slipping into the waves on the shore or into a pond or pool awakened
my body not only to my physical senses, but to my full-bodied communion with earth.
The
photo above, taken in Hawai’i in 1985 by my friend George Lynch, was modestly
posed and, for this purpose, even more modestly edited! But I use it to illustrate a story of mysterium tremendum, what happened just
before I swam back to stand on the rocks surrounding this natural pool at the
base of the towering waterfall in the background.
For
me, stripping and stepping into an unknown body of water such as this was an
act of both courage and vulnerability. I didn’t know what else might be in the
water and to what I might be exposing my most personal parts; yet it was
thrilling and enlivening to do so. The depth of the pool and whatever currents
hid beneath the gently rippling surface were also unknown to this less-than-expert
swimmer.
Three
times I swam toward the base of the waterfall that spewed from rocks some fifty
feet above, each time a little closer, and three times I returned to the shore
without daring to swim beneath the roaring, hard-falling water. This was
reasonable, given that the water might have knocked me out.
But
approaching the danger, I was filled with an exquisite, fearful awe; my mysterium tremendum. It had parallels to
leaving behind religious fundamentalism and biblical literalism, or taking on public
speaking and activism as an introvert, or coming out of the closet, or making
love for the first time. There was something sacred and awesome beyond each seeming
terror.
For
those of us who are stripping ourselves of unnecessary religious constraints, baptizing
ourselves in progressive Christianity, we approach in awe and terror a
different God. Does God really love
us unconditionally? Does God really live
“in our neighborhood,” in our house? Can God forgive without demanding such a
price as the sacrifice of Jesus or the damnation of unbelievers? What currents
or creatures lurk beneath the surface that may threaten our most personal
selves?
“Wonder
calls us to disorientation, unsettling pathos that it is, and to new
orientation,” William Brown writes in the concluding paragraph of Sacred Sense: Discovering the Wonder of God’s Word and World, borrowing Walter Brueggemann’s categories.
C’mon
in! The water’s fine!
Photo copyright © 1985
by George F. Lynch. Used by permission.
Copyright © 2015 by
Chris R. Glaser. Permission granted for non-profit use with attribution of
author and blogsite. Other rights reserved.
I am grateful for your sharing this, Chris. It confirms and affirms where i was and why i was there. It confirms my journey.
ReplyDeleteThis is just what I needed to hear today...thank you!
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing. It tells me that every day is really a step of faith when you walk with God.
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