I
think we got off on the wrong foot, believing that death came into the world
because of sin. If there is something divinely providential about our lives,
there must be something divinely providential about our deaths. In the language
of the previous post, “The Universe in Your Soul,” the cosmos that begat life
must have also begat death.
This
insight, this revelation, came to me as clear as day while reading Julian of
Norwich’s Revelations one morning.
And it gave me great peace, and dare I say, bliss. I felt as I imagine C. S.
Lewis’s wife did when she was “surprised by joy.”
Was
it something Julian said? Probably, but not directly. The idea welled up in me
as she described our yearning to see the face of God, though I don’t assume as
she does that death provides that experience. Neither do I reject that hope. After
all, if we can imagine an infinite multiverse, who knows what death may bring?
I
believe that whatever death means, it is intended as providentially as our
lives. It is part of the natural order
of things or the divine order of things, however one chooses to view it.
“Thy
kingdom come, thy will be done” in death as in life. “In life and in death we
belong to God.”
Because
we resist death, and our deaths in particular, as part of life, we view death
as a kind of failure rather than an accomplishment or completion. It is not
only the medical profession that suffers this. Because long ago death was
associated with sin, even those who don’t think much about sin may search
obituaries for self-inflicted causes, even if it’s simply to have been in the
wrong place at the wrong time.
I
wrote a sonnet to a friend in college that rather romantically compared our
life cycle with that of alpine wildflowers, ending with the couplet:
Even then I wanted to be buried straight into the ground, recycled, as it were, into the earth, and into other forms of life.And then someday we’ll lose composeWhile out of us, another grows.
But
recycling has other expressions.
“Unless
a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains just a single grain;
but if it dies, it bears much fruit,” Jesus said.
Having
sold only two paintings in his lifetime, Vincent van Gogh wrote to his brother
Theo, “Life is only a kind of sowing time; the harvest is not here.”
Echoing
this, Henri Nouwen spoke of the “fruitfulness of our lives” that may only be realized
after our brief lifespans.
In
one of her letters of spiritual direction, Evelyn Underhill wrote, “No one, not
even the greatest saint, is irreplaceable. It is a greater act of trust and
love to give your work into fresh hands…”
Finally,
it takes an artist like Van Gogh seeing death as if for the first time to
observe:
It certainly is a strange phenomenon that all the artists, poets, musicians, painters, are unfortunate in material things… That brings up again the eternal question: is the whole of life visible to us, or isn’t it rather that this side [of] death we see one hemisphere only?
Painters—to take them only—dead and buried, speak to the next generation or to several succeeding generations through their work.
Is that all, or is there more besides? In a painter’s life death is not perhaps the hardest thing there is.
For my own part, I declare I know nothing whatever about it, but to look at the stars always makes me dream, as simply as I dream over the black dots of a map representing towns and villages. Why, I ask myself, should the shining dots of the sky not be as accessible as the black dots on the map of France? If we take the train to get to Tarascon or Rouen, we take death to reach a star. One thing undoubtedly true in this reasoning is this, that while we are alive we cannot get to a star, any more than when we are dead we can take the train.
So it seems to me possible that cholera, gravel, phthisis and cancer are the celestial means of locomotion, just as steamboats, omnibuses and railways are the terrestrial means. To die quietly of old age would be to go there on foot.
My
preference would be to go there on foot, but regardless of how I get there, I
hope to trust the benevolent providence of God and the universe. They’ve been
doing life and death much, much longer and better than I have.
Readers
are this blog’s only means of support. To donate, please click here or mail to Metropolitan Community Churches, P.O. Box 50488, Sarasota FL
34232 USA, designating “Progressive Christian Reflections” in the memo area of
your check or money order.
Thank
you!
Copyright © 2015 by Chris R. Glaser.
Permission granted for non-profit use with attribution of author and blogsite.
Other rights reserved.
Beauty FULL, Chris. Thank you too much.
ReplyDeleteA few years ago I had a cancer crisis. Throughout the entire journey, I never feared death...not once. Of course, if one must get cancer, I had one of the most treatable ones to get. Nonetheless, while my family was concerned, I was not. Did I want to die? Absolutely not. I want to see all 8 grandchildren grow up and become adults. Bob and I are enjoying retirement and have tons of things we still want to do. But, I didn't fear death. If God saw fit to call me home at that time, I would have gone with no regrets. I do believe I will see the face of God and get clarity on all those questions I have now.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Kelsey, for this wonderful comment. I'm glad you survived, and I hope we see the face of God! We've known each other since high school, and I am grateful to continue to share our faith journeys. My best to you and Bob and your family!
Delete