“It
would be an error to think that a liberated prisoner was not in need of
spiritual care anymore.” –Viktor Frankl, Man’s
Search for Meaning
This
observation comes toward the end of Frankl’s autobiographical and psychological
account of his time as a prisoner in Nazi concentration camps. Having described
repeated traumatic events in the life of fellow prisoners, he turns to the
trauma of suddenly being free: the feelings of unreality, bitterness,
disappointment (when, for example, the person the prisoner most longed to see
was no longer) and disillusionment (when others pleaded ignorance or relativized
the prisoner’s suffering).
Frankl
writes that the liberated prisoner needed to re-learn how to feel pleasure. On
the first day of “freedom” the inmates went outside the camp gates and
witnessed “meadows full of flowers” but later confessed to one another, “Tell
me, were you pleased today?” “Truthfully, no!”
But
a few days later, passing the same flowering meadows, hearing larks singing and
seeing them rise to the skies, with nothing but earth and sky around him, he
found himself kneeling and saying over and over again, “I called to the Lord
from my narrow prison and He answered me in the freedom of space.” He didn’t
know how long he knelt, repeating these words, beginning to feel human again.
But it is in that context that he writes, “It would be an error to think that a
liberated prisoner was not in need of spiritual care anymore.”
The
insight struck me as a hammer brought down full strength on an anvil. Without
pretending to compare Frankl’s suffering to that of the rest of us, it is also
true that those liberated from closets or fundamentalism or even church are
still greatly in need of spiritual care. We too need a verse to chant, to sing,
to pray, so that we may feel pleasure and awe as we come to our senses as “the
human being fully alive” that is God’s glory.
And
I would say we need one thing more.
The
first sermon in which I included gay people by name among “the least of these” for
whom Jesus cared, my text was the story from Acts of Paul and Silas in prison. An earthquake frees them, and the
jail keeper prepares to take his own life, thinking they have escaped. But Paul
shouts out, “Do not be afraid, for we are all here.” That was my sermon title,
and I explained that despite their liberation, they take time to convert the
jail keeper, recognizing he too is imprisoned. I’d like to think that, almost
to the day that I gave that sermon 40 years ago, I still have some of that
youthful idealism.
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I keep trying for that idealism, too, Chris. Takes more work to keep it there, these days, but I haven't thought of a better alternative. Thanks.
ReplyDeleteThanks, yes. And it may prevent others being imprisoned.
Delete"despite their liberation, they take time to convert the jail keeper, recognizing he too is imprisoned"
ReplyDeleteLove this Chris.
I have a picture that
when i live in the waterfall of blessings, grace and mercy, all my relations live there with me.
When I refuse to allow God's waterfall of blessings, mercy and grace to anyone, I refuse to allow it into me as well.
This picture is one of the things that helps me with the jailers of the world.
I look forward to reading more of your writing!
-wendy