Ladybug season again at our place.
This one crawled along the book, the pen and then my glasses.
Spiritual
gurus admonish us to “go toward the light,” and especially in this winter
season of a pandemic, that seems preferable to wallowing in darkness. But a
line in a poem entitled “Lux et Veritas” in J. Barrie Shepherd’s latest
chapbook, A Poetic Pandemic Christmas Pudding, reminds me of the
vitality of darkness.
Contrasting
our light displays during this season with the humble lighting of Jesus’ stable
cave that allowed “the clear radiance that streamed above, around, beyond that
battered-blessed manger,” poet and pastor Shepherd recalls introducing his
first granddaughter to “the black-velvet-spread celestial of The Milky Way”
“one sparkling island night in Maine”:
Her sheer astonishment made clear that we must
claim our darkness too, if we would glimpse
the glory of the elemental light.
Sunday
over Zoom, Ormewood Church had a glimpse of the glory that may come when we
“claim our darkness too.” Preaching on Mary’s Magnificat, Rev. Jenelle Holmes shared
a recent dark moment in her life and offered her own “Magnificat,” and she has
graciously allowed me to share it with you:
My soul deepens and broadens the
Lord’s presence and my spirit rejoices with God who saves me each and every
day. God has looked with eyes of mercy on me, when some in the world have
looked on me with disdain. God has seen the ways I am held back by others and
has handed me support. People call me blessed because God has walked with me on
hard roads of rejection, depression and anxiety and anger, and God has carried
me through. God’s name is holy and God is a holy space for me. When I could
have turned around and cursed God, I took God’s presence seriously and God has
honored that with a strong arm of confidence and love.
Those who wish me harm through
rejection or fear or ignorance, God has dealt with in the privacy of their
hearts. Those who have sought to harm me by using their voices of privilege,
even in the church and in my family, God has shouted over them that I am loved
and that I am who I was created to be.
And as I look to my neighbors who
are without homes, I have seen God’s people provide shelter. As I look to my
neighbors who have lost their jobs, I have seen God’s people write checks. As I
look to my neighbors who are lonely and isolated, I have seen God’s presence
ignite ideas and rhythms of faith. As I look to my neighbors who have
experienced one setback after another, I have seen God provide one day after
another.
And the rich, the powerful, the
ignorant: God will show them the emptiness of their greed. They will be hungry
for the good work of God.
And as I think of how God helped
ancient Israel escape Pharaoh, how God has helped the barren experience new
life and the dead come back to life, and the marginalized be handed a voice, I
remember God’s mercy forever, in every generation, even my own, even in 2020.
My soul magnifies the Lord and my spirit rejoices with God who saves me each
and every day. –Rev. Jenelle Holmes
Having
lived in a metaphoric dark closet during my childhood and youth as a gay kid, I
knew where the light was—it was outside my protective, defensive, even
necessary shell. The glory of God and my own glory lay beyond my captive,
seductive defenses and others’ captive, destructive offenses. Remember Jung’s
suggestion that religion is a kind of defense against God? My closet—my and
others’ rigid conceptions of God—kept me from God’s glory.
My
most recent “aha” about who God is, is that God is the glory at the climax of
the prayer Jesus taught us: “For thine is the kingdom and the power and the
glory.” That glory is unknowable but visible in the infinite wonders of the universe,
in myriad forms of life, and in human compassion and imagination. This is the
prophet Isaiah’s “light that shines in darkness.” It is the “shekinah” of
Yahweh’s divine presence. It is the glory that brightened Moses’ face and lifted
Mary’s soul, as well as our own souls through Immanuel, God-with-us.
I
pray this glory for you as you approach this Christmas:
God bless you and keep you;
God make God’s face to shine upon you,
and be gracious to you;
God lift up God’s countenance upon you,
and
give you peace. Numbers 6:24-26
Then
we may attend to this summons in another of Barrie’s poems, “The Coming of the
Light”: “Look deep into this gentle fire, and then go forth to bear it, far and
tender, to wherever infants, cold and frightened, tremble in the dark with no
bright star, no kings to greet.”
For your own copy of poet and pastor J.
Barrie Shepherd’s holiday chapbook: A Poetic Pandemic Christmas
Pudding,
please send a check to J. Barrie Shepherd at 15 Piper Road – K325, Scarborough
ME 04074. Copies will be signed and can be inscribed by request. Or order
though his email: barrieshep@aol.com. $10 per copy plus $2
postage. Proceeds go to food pantries in his area of Maine.
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Contemporary Magnificat © 2020 by Rev.
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